It's Hard Sometimes

I'm going through a brown-out, low phase. One can only hear how stupid, lazy and useless one is for so long. I'm so tired of never amounting to much. I really thought I had a bright future. Now, it seems, whatever I touch turns to shit. I'm tired of cringing because I know how my mother will react to my failures. It's so easy for her to say that I never do anything, or that I'm so lazy, blah blah blah.... I thought families were suppose to support each other?